Not So Bad

The weather didn't suck nearly as much ass today as I thought it would. It was hot, yes, but it didn't feel and worse then yesterday or the day before. I wish I could be at the pool, but it just didn't feel right without Teetz. So I will wait til Saturday and Kayleen and I will go. I like being a sun bunny. I want to honeymoon in Greece and just lay on a beach for a week, that would be ideal. I just have to get married first. Blech. Fuck that, I'll go to Greece anyway, by myself if I have to. Oh who I am kidding, I can't even sit in a bar by myself while Teetz goes to get a drink, I can't go to a foreign country by myself - I'll just make Teetz go with me.

The new Dub came out, so I haven't seen Brett at all this week and that makes me sad. Last time I saw him was Friday night and he was a little annoyed with me for part of the night, so I'm sure that isn't helping either. But I want him to help me make chili, at least when it cools off a little. I barely use my stove at all, ever, and at least if we hang out here it feels more like home. I know he doesn't like to because it's hot sometimes, but now that I keep the air running constantly, it's getting much better. Granted, his apartment is always going to be ten times cooler, but come on, it's not so bad. Plus, I am too cool to not hang out with. I miss watching The OC, or Desperate Housewives, or Scrubs, or whatever. That's just what we do. Sometimes with Chinese food. But you know, over there, they just call it food. (That's a FRIENDS reference for all of you uneducated swine...just kidding about the swine part...)

Song of the Moment: "Hurt" Johnny Cash
I'm not sure why, I am just on a Johnny Cash kick right now. Gotta love him. If you don't, you have no soul, and are probably not really even human either.

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way